Who Is Sovereign Over My Life

--and then I wanted to be God of my own life; actually, it wasn't a then, it was something that had permeated my entire existence up until a while ago.
and yet I was failing at it---I wanted to be in control because that's what seemed like the responsible thing to do ,as well as getting what I wanted?
Oh but that sounds awfully selfish, now that I write it out, but even just saying it is.
Be in control, be wise, learn new things, enjoy life. Be a balanced person. They all sound like good things.
--but what use are those ideals if it all comes to naught?
If in this world, you are living for yourself---and being moral and living to help others out because it is the right thing to do and your heart goes out to them, and we're solving their immediate problems.
But what of their souls, if Christianity is true, then we are doing the most disservice in not telling them about a God who is mighty to save them from themselves.

Now I probably am going off on a tangent, but I just want to say what I'm struggling with.

Sooo, if He's all powerful , all knowing, with all wisdom and love.
He's perfect, He knows what's best for us.
Why not let Him take control of our lives, let Him take the weary burden of our souls off our weary shoulders ,because His yoke is light. and He can use us powerfully for His kingdom if we would only let Him.
"And so that no one may boast that he was the one who did great, but that it was a gift from God." --because when we are at our humblest before God, we enjoy Him the most.
And why would we want to enjoy Him?
because having joy in Him is the best feeling you will ever get!

for those who don't have Christ , this world is the closest to Heaven they will get and
for those who do, the world is the closest to Hell they will get.
I guess I went on a tangent again !
But..
He is our Creator and He gave us the life that we live. Ands since He's perfect...
Isn't it better to want what He wants for us, because His desires for us are perfect?



so I pray that I live a life that brings the most glory to Him, whether it's enjoying time with friends, or doodling down some ideas, one that shares His love is the one I want to live.